I can hardly believe it is almost time once again to gather our amazing group of marathon runners together to support St Jude and to keep Carson's legacy alive. It seems like only yesterday that Carson and I were bundled up tightly on the St Jude campus waving at her team members as they ran by; little did I know that by that time the next year our sweet angel would be gone and I would be running that same marathon for all of the children still walking the halls of St Jude. Oh how I long for those days back again so I could just see those bouncy blonde curls one more time or hear her say "I love you Mommy".
I spent a long time at the cemetery Friday in the pouring down rain trying to remember all of those happy times so they will never be erased from my memory. I have such a hard time remembering those happy days because my thoughts are still so fresh and raw from all of the nightmares Carson had to endure. All four of us still struggle with these dreams daily but I want you to know we still feel your prayers as we struggle with putting one foot in front of another each and every day. It is that very struggle that moves us onward in supporting St Jude. No family should ever have to endure the daily heartbreak of losing a child. It is a heartbreak that presses down on your chest until you feel like you can't breathe. It is a dark cloud that follows you wherever you go. It is the constant ache of your mind racing with questions like "Why my child? And what did we do to deserve this? And will we ever feel true joy again?" Just why....
These very feelings push us in supporting St Jude. Childhood cancer has to end. It must. And I truly believe with all my heart that St Jude can find the cure to accomplish this. But not without your help. Let's run and raise money like we never have before. Our team raised over $80,000 last year! But I can hear Carson saying we can do better. So I have a challenge for each of you. If you are signing up to run, don't just sign up and then run! Yes the run is amazing and an experience like no other, but that's not what it's all about. We need you to commit to raise money for these children. I would love to see every single member on our team be a hero! That means you will commit to raise at least $500. If you are reading this and you aren't a runner but want to support Team Carson Elizabeth then find a team runner to sponsor on her team. Let Carson's legacy live on let's go out there and end this horrible disease!
We love you all for the support you continue to show us each and every day. Your prayers, texts, cards and calls never go unnoticed. I believe God put each of you in our families path because without you and God's love we would not be standing. I told someone the other day that I am truly blessed and they looked at me like I was crazy. I went on to tell them that even though I am heartbroken I still feel like God has blessed this family above and beyond what we deserve. And for that I am grateful.
I spent a long time at the cemetery Friday in the pouring down rain trying to remember all of those happy times so they will never be erased from my memory. I have such a hard time remembering those happy days because my thoughts are still so fresh and raw from all of the nightmares Carson had to endure. All four of us still struggle with these dreams daily but I want you to know we still feel your prayers as we struggle with putting one foot in front of another each and every day. It is that very struggle that moves us onward in supporting St Jude. No family should ever have to endure the daily heartbreak of losing a child. It is a heartbreak that presses down on your chest until you feel like you can't breathe. It is a dark cloud that follows you wherever you go. It is the constant ache of your mind racing with questions like "Why my child? And what did we do to deserve this? And will we ever feel true joy again?" Just why....
These very feelings push us in supporting St Jude. Childhood cancer has to end. It must. And I truly believe with all my heart that St Jude can find the cure to accomplish this. But not without your help. Let's run and raise money like we never have before. Our team raised over $80,000 last year! But I can hear Carson saying we can do better. So I have a challenge for each of you. If you are signing up to run, don't just sign up and then run! Yes the run is amazing and an experience like no other, but that's not what it's all about. We need you to commit to raise money for these children. I would love to see every single member on our team be a hero! That means you will commit to raise at least $500. If you are reading this and you aren't a runner but want to support Team Carson Elizabeth then find a team runner to sponsor on her team. Let Carson's legacy live on let's go out there and end this horrible disease!
We love you all for the support you continue to show us each and every day. Your prayers, texts, cards and calls never go unnoticed. I believe God put each of you in our families path because without you and God's love we would not be standing. I told someone the other day that I am truly blessed and they looked at me like I was crazy. I went on to tell them that even though I am heartbroken I still feel like God has blessed this family above and beyond what we deserve. And for that I am grateful.
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